An old high school crush.

The movie begins five years after the loss of Mac’s father, Charlie.

While looking at a wall of framed photos, she wistfully whispers, “Miss you, Pop.”

Sarah Drew smiling

“When he died, I just fell apart.

I could barely function.”

… just desperately trying to keep him alive when he isn’t," she says in the film.

Sarah Drew mourning in Reindeer Games Homecoming

Actress Sarah Drew, who plays Mac, shares theholidays can be hardfor those who have experienced loss.

She toldThe Nerds of Color.

“It’s okay to be sad, confused, upset,” Dr. Rachel Brandoff toldParade.

two hands holding letter from Reindeer Games Homecoming

“There can be great value in allowing yourself to feel difficult feelings.”

“He wrote this one to me a couple days before he died,” Mac reveals.

“I haven’t read it yet.”

In another scene, she explains, “If I do, if I do, that’s it.

I’ll never hear from him again.

I’ll have to let him go, and I don’t want to let him go.

I miss him so much.”

With Chase’s help, Mac eventually reads the letter.

“The holidays can bring up many complicated feelings.”